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 One day at my university in Damascus, a terrible event happened That day, a mortar shell landed on the student´s cafeteria. 22 students lost their lives And later in that period, I had an Exam, which was surprising how we went as we usually do. We all continue the examination next to the location of the shell. We sat afterwards next to the park where the explosion took place. And, of course, it was already cleaned out of all traces of blood and flesh. But we noticed a piece laying on the grass that no one saw, a human jaw. with teeth and meat parts And when I gazed at it, I froze and pondered maybe for ten minutes I was not thinking about anything, but I felt something. There are moments of human experience when language and words never help For the first time in my life, I needed to write poetry. I did write stuff every now and then. But this time is different; this time, there is something that feels like a revelation. May 2016 The first movement: a jaw was moving with plans, dr...

"You will know you are doing the right thing when you are rewarded with peace." Oprah Winery When I think about any decision, I talk to myself through other people's mouths; Friends, co-workers, or Imaginary People. Anyone who I imagine their opinion is in contrast to mine. Furthermore, it is also impossible to change theirs. Here we enter the battlefield (the internal discussion). There I judge my "tone"... Is it an angry, sarcastic, or "competing to a crowd" one? Then my decision is not ready and needs more reflection. Here we must sit still, take a breath, and re-re-reflect on the things that appear to us in need of a fight. Take a breath and seek the essence of your resistance. *Example* If the decision has something to do with money, then what does "money" mean to you, or "the value of it": Power to elevate pain, sacred, easy as it comes and goes, challenging to obtain, etc. If there is a word that rings from all the values, th...

1. draw a complete manga (15%) I know how and I can draw a little, just work on my storytelling and understand more the art of graphic novels. 2. make your own research (on architecture or urbanism) (100%): Master Thesis on Memory in Cities 3. learn Japanese, travel to Japan (10%) A1.1 4. help others grow (make a difference in your hometown) (100%): 22 now is an established group within my hometown, a volunteer hub for architecture students 5. learn how to sing (5%) I took some lessons 6. read German literature (30%) 7. see the end of One Piece  (50%) 8. make a rich personal blog (100%) I am quite satisfied with what I have now 9. make videos (for fun & education) (5%) I started learning, yet I need more time 10. never grow old mentally (might check on death bed) (90%) 11. reach financial comfort  (100%) Although not earning much, but I am very comfortable   12. hug an old cat (not yet)

You can be starving  And make a quick meal  But the slower you cook  The tastier the dish I have developed a symptom of hastiness as I feel every time I start working on a project, it needs to be finished as soon as possible.  I reflected back to my earlier experience of hastiness when I was an architectural student at Damascus University. In the last three years of my studies, the Syrian crisis broke out. It did not affect me directly in Damascus as I was living in somewhat safer parts. However, the energy supply system was severely damaged. That led the authorities to compensate for the energy shortage by making regular blackouts in residential areas. Which sometimes last for 16 hours a day (we only get to use electricity 4 hours a day). Now energy supply is not supposed to be an essential need that would affect you profoundly. But an architecture student depends on computer programs to work on their projects. That will result in considerable stress problems for su...

The first movement a jaw was moving with plans, dreams, and jokes the second movement away from the mover away laying on grass but in me was moving his plans, dreams, and jokes his first love and noisy brother screaming loudly as I stood like a scolded child apologising yet again for his loss

When we understand that the mechanical view of the world is been built on a method of gaining knowledge, not knowledge itself, we might be able to set on the first step of gaining that missing knowledge. Imagining the world as a machine of push/pull factors was the method to answer how things work mechanically not how things work. Christopher Alexander wrote in his book "Nature of Order: The Phenomenon of Life" that what makes us create this lifeless modern building is our new disturbed understanding of the world (as a machine), confusing the parts we understand as they are the entire whole. Maybe this is why we say "the whole is greater than the parts" because we have only understood one part of these "parts" so we can't yet manage to build the entire "whole" picture. So if we admit having some missing parts but still somehow grasp the whole then maybe we could grasp a bit the nature of the universe?. Ok, let's try this on...

I found the translation of "Homeless" interesting in the other two languages that I know about.  Beginning with  English:  Homeless is a person minus a home (where one lives permanently). Its equivalence in  German  is "Heimatlos". The literal meaning of Heimat is "homeland or native country". Heimatlos is a person without a nation. I guess Germans described the people they had on their streets as people who lost their native land.  On the other hand, "Homeless" feels like they can be on their native land without a house or family. Now when it comes to  Arabic  متشرّد "mutasharrid" we start by seeing the word's root as a verb: as no expert here, I will try out two roots: 1- شَردَ this is the three-letter root verb: sharada : lost (like lost in thought or lost their way) 2- تَشَرّد this is the five-letter root verb: tasharrada wandering around without a goal It feels like the meaning in Arabic transcended from the "form" ...